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By Yoginâm Abbahjí

It is natural to be grateful
And express gratefulness
After having been granted a service
Or after having received a gift.

Apart from natural gratefulness
There is also the unnatural gratefulness
The role playing with regard to authority
A gratefulness expressed for your benefit With the prospect of receiving more.

People project both types
Of worldly and psychological gratefulness
Onto a God, thanking him for benefits received
For harvest and for having won a bloody battle
And hoping that sufficient expression of being grateful
Leads to the future dispensing of more benefits
Such attitude, until recent past and in social context Was often linked to monarchy and political authority
The king-god needs to be kept pleased.

Such gratitude is a serious diversion
For any kind of spiritual endeavour in yoga
For in it there is an ‘I’ and a ‘God’ and this ‘I’
Expresses gratitude as to a benevolent king-god.

The point at the centre of the circle
Is the product of the circle
The circle has naturally a centre
While the point has naturally a circumference
Even if the latter is infinite.

Human living, which is SIWEB, being
The ‘Sense of I’ and the ‘Sense of Web-world’,
Both inseparably intertwined
Is a consequence of infinite Resonance
Of which human living is an integral part.

You cannot think about the world
At most you can have an image
Of a thinking resonance
Within phenomena that appear to constitute a world
This is an image that is exclusively real as being
In one range of resonance
While in other ranges of resonance
It is non-being.

This illusion that there is an ‘I’ and a ‘world’
Is not an illusion from the perspective of human living
It is only an illusion from a perspective
That transcends human living as Experience
And opens itself for sharing in supra-human resonance
Which, though being less-human, is the essence of what we are.

Whether we realise it or not
All that we do as living is sharing
The very nature of the point in the circle
Is the consequence of this sharing
It is because of our blindness that we do not realise it
It is this sharing and not the management of Experience
That determines what and how we are.

The recognition of a divinity
Is a natural psychological response to
The unconscious realisation of this sharing
Relating to the divinity is nothing other
Than opening oneself to one’s sharing.

The hidden trap of divinity is
That, in a social context, it becomes solidified
It turns into an imaginary truth
And assumes anthropomorphic characteristics
With a will and a design of its own
This image both in religious and secular sense
Serves the hidden feudal nature of most societies
It does not serve the individual spiritual endeavour
Which is, for everybody individually, the true Task of Living.

People even when they accept
The incomprehensible Nâm as the Ultimate
Are often blind to the fact that
Many Attitudes, that are considered as natural and self-evident
Are ignoring Nâm at the very same time.

We cannot relate to the incomprehensible
Even if it is the very root of our nature
Nâm is the opening to a supra-experiential
And supra-rational Certainty
Nâm is the ultimate objectless Affirmation
In professing Nâm you do not affirm a belief
Nâm is shaping yourself in the Certainty of Affirmation
There is no way to relate to an Affirmation that is you
Therefore in order to orient life in Nâm
You need the key: which is Abbah
Abbah is Nâm from a human perspective

Abbah is the Ultimate: indeed the Divine
But as it it is nothing other than an image
That expresses Nâm, it cannot be defined
No anthropomorphic characteristics or attributes
Could be ascribed to Abbah, this, while
It is your being, your thinking, your feeling
It moves in your desires, opinions, ideas and beliefs
Abbah is not something I believe in
The image of ‘me-believing’ is Abbah
And Abbah is ‘me-breathing’, ‘me-thinking’
‘Me-feeling’, ‘me-dancing’ and ‘me-loving’
And ‘me-sorrowing’ and ‘me-suffering’ as well
Abbah does not live in ‘me as living’
Abbah is ‘me-as-living'

For that reason there is never
A ‘Me and Abbah’ or ‘Abbah and me’
The Task of Living is removing this illusion of duality
There is no Abbah and me, or me on my way to Abbah
There is only Abbah and in the spiritual endeavour of Nâm-yoga
The ‘Sense of I’ is increasingly diluted
Until in the end there is only Abbah
Human living turns from ‘living as human’ to ‘living as Abbah’

With regard to Abbah
There cannot be gratitude for received blessings
And yet being grateful is, as resonance,
A potent remedy for bloated self-importance
While expressing gratefulness is socially civilised
The social gratefulness should be rooted
In resonance that transcends it dualistic nature

Through unconscious Creative Imagination
You create the circumstances of your life
Always in accordance with the Task of Living
That your particular participation in sharing performs
Agreeable and disagreeable experiences direct you
To the most beneficial Attitude and Behaviour
Both agreeable and disagreeable instances carry messages
The endeavour of Nâm-yoga consists in discovering the messages
Listening to the messages and shaping your living
In accordance with the messages

You cannot be grateful to yourself
For being the cause of what you are
But you can be struck by Awe and Wonder
That you are what you are:
That essence beyond comprehension
Instead of with a slavish gratitude
Infuse your life with Awe and Wonder
And saturate the dimensions of Experience
With its beneficial resonance.

Awe and Wonder generates Devotion
There is no other steed as swift as that
For the spiritual endeavour of Nâm-yoga
Devotion leads to the release of the ‘I-illusion’
In Abbah the human sense of being dissolves
For a Carrier of the light of Nâm
Devotion that is rooted in Awe and Wonder
Is the way gratitude is expressed
In every instant of living.